Something's Gotta Give!

So, I blogged a while back about my knee and how I hurt it at the gym. Well, about a month ago I finally went to the doctor. I went to a "Doc-In-The Box", as I call them to let them look at it. It had been hurting and swelling up anytime I would put any kind of pressure or weight on it. (walking, running, even crossing my leg on it) It even caused my calf right under my knee to swell and it felt very tight. So, I went and they checked me out, did an x-ray, which was fine, and scheduled me for an ultrasound the next day. I got an ultrasound done on basically my whole leg to rule out any clots. EIGHT FLIPPIN' DAYS LATER(I won't get started on this soap-box) I was notified that the ultrasound came back normal. Soooo.....they suggested I either come back in and be re-evaluated, or spend another $40 for them to tell me the same thing, or I would probably have no problem being seen by a specialist without a referral. The lady also suggested that I see a CARDIOLOGIST......really? Cardio doc? Ummm....my knee is hurting, swollen, and you think I should see a cardio doc over an ortho doc? Ummm, nothankyou! So, for the last 3 weeks or so I've contemplated what to do about this. Should I go back to the doctor to get it looked at once more? Should I get my films from the x-ray and ultrasound, along with the doctor's notes, and just go see an ortho doc on my own? It seems as though I've gotten used to having a swollen knee and calf. It happens pretty much every day, unless I'm laying around being huhummm, lazy....which NEVER happens...NO, NEVER! Pfhhh! I try to keep from crossing my leg over it, but it comes very natural to me to cross my legs so if I'm not paying attention, I'll do it all day while I sit at my desk. Like today.....for some reason I decided to be cute and wear some stilettos, AND have crossed my legs A LOT today....needless to say, THE leg is extremely swollen right now. Crossing my leg or putting some kind of pressure on it makes it really bad. Walking and running does no good either though.

I'm still trying to figure out what to do about it. I can't keep letting it go on, because I know something's wrong. I mean, things don't swell for NO reason. So, maybe in the next week or two I'll come to a decision and get this taken care of once and for all. Honestly, I'd really like to have a normal leg again. That's the latest on the ongoing leg drama. (not that I expect any of you to be concerned about it...after all, there are more important things in the world) :)

I think I may just be afraid of what the prognosis will be, and that's keeping me from going. The idea of surgery terrifies me, and I automatically think of the worst-case scenario. Bad, I know. I should be really positive and think, It's probably something really simple, but I don't. Shame on me, I need to think more positive...I know! I'll do better....and I WILL get this thing seen about...soon! Hope you all are having a fantastic week!!